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8 Years On: A Life Update
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So... Wow. 8 years since the creation of this account. 8 years of history, and a peek into what my life used to be.
I'll admit, it's been kind of surreal, going back through all of my journal entries. It's just... incredible, thinking about how much I've changed, where I've come from, what I've gone through...
Well, needless to say, I feel I owe those of you who are still around an update, 'cause lord knows I might as well have dropped off the face of the planet.
Well, some of you used to know me. Maybe not now, due to how much I've changed... But I'm Jesse. I just turned 19 (I made this account when I was 10), and I'm working on getting my GED and getting my shit together the older I get. For a long time, I was at a standstill. A good chunk of my life is lost to me behind a depressive haze, and I barely managed to make it this far. I dragged myself, kicking and screaming, to where I am now, and I couldn't be any prouder of myself.
Things have been... Hard. Really hard. I've gained a little, lost a lot, learned even more. The past 5 months alone have been some of the hardest I've ever faced, but I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I can finally see a future for myself.
My battle with depression has been an uphill one. I feel like I never really... got to be a kid, despite how everything may seem. I was forced to grow up at a young age and learn to fend for myself, considering my mother might as well have been absent, and my father wasn't in the picture until this past April. I hadn't heard from him since 2011. Times have changed. I still haven't learned vital social skills that I need to know to... even really exist as a functioning member of society, but I'm getting there. Slowly but surely, I'm proving to the world that I'm not just another statistic. I'm not just another sob story. I'm me, and I'm brilliant, and I'll blow people out of the water with my mind and my spirit and they'll just have to deal with it.
So... School. I decided to get into a trade, so that's a thing. Welding. I've always had a bit of an interest in metalworking, so I'll just have to see how that goes for me. Tuition for the school I'm looking at is $8,500--by no means cheap, but certainly worth it in the grand scheme of things. After that, once I get on my feet and get comfortable, I'm gonna save up and move overseas. Certainly not something that's happening in the near future, but a goal I'm looking forward to.
I'm still roleplaying! My writing has improved phenomenally, and I'm super duper proud of myself. A lot of the muses you might have seen here or on CrashBomb have died out, but I've picked up muses based in and around the TF2 'verse. That's been a pretty big interest for me for a long while now. It's just a really awesome game and community with a lot of potential for worldbuilding. I love it. I still focus on Megaman on the side--once a robot lover, always a robot lover--but it's safe to say it's no longer my primary interest.
As of right now I'm pretty comfortable with my online presence. I'm not well known, but I have enough folks around that appreciate me and my work to where I'm happy with it. While I'm working on my happiness as a whole, it's the little things that keep me going in the long run, y'know? Never discredit the little things. They mean more than you'd think.
So... Yeah. Stuff happened and stuff is still happening, but... I'm alive, and I'm not going anywhere anytime soon. Who knows? Maybe you'll see me around even further down the line, enjoying life to the fullest, despite my past and other assorted troubles weighing me down.
After all, the world doesn't seem so heavy when you have the folks you love to hold you up.
Anywho, I don't have a link to drop you guys this time, but just know I'm alive and kickin'. I might check up on here every now and again, but I figure that if you drop a comment, I'll go ahead and PM you on my newest account. It's always nice to get in touch with people you've known since the beginning.
Best of luck, guys.
-- Dragon
I'll admit, it's been kind of surreal, going back through all of my journal entries. It's just... incredible, thinking about how much I've changed, where I've come from, what I've gone through...
Well, needless to say, I feel I owe those of you who are still around an update, 'cause lord knows I might as well have dropped off the face of the planet.
Well, some of you used to know me. Maybe not now, due to how much I've changed... But I'm Jesse. I just turned 19 (I made this account when I was 10), and I'm working on getting my GED and getting my shit together the older I get. For a long time, I was at a standstill. A good chunk of my life is lost to me behind a depressive haze, and I barely managed to make it this far. I dragged myself, kicking and screaming, to where I am now, and I couldn't be any prouder of myself.
Things have been... Hard. Really hard. I've gained a little, lost a lot, learned even more. The past 5 months alone have been some of the hardest I've ever faced, but I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I can finally see a future for myself.
My battle with depression has been an uphill one. I feel like I never really... got to be a kid, despite how everything may seem. I was forced to grow up at a young age and learn to fend for myself, considering my mother might as well have been absent, and my father wasn't in the picture until this past April. I hadn't heard from him since 2011. Times have changed. I still haven't learned vital social skills that I need to know to... even really exist as a functioning member of society, but I'm getting there. Slowly but surely, I'm proving to the world that I'm not just another statistic. I'm not just another sob story. I'm me, and I'm brilliant, and I'll blow people out of the water with my mind and my spirit and they'll just have to deal with it.
So... School. I decided to get into a trade, so that's a thing. Welding. I've always had a bit of an interest in metalworking, so I'll just have to see how that goes for me. Tuition for the school I'm looking at is $8,500--by no means cheap, but certainly worth it in the grand scheme of things. After that, once I get on my feet and get comfortable, I'm gonna save up and move overseas. Certainly not something that's happening in the near future, but a goal I'm looking forward to.
I'm still roleplaying! My writing has improved phenomenally, and I'm super duper proud of myself. A lot of the muses you might have seen here or on CrashBomb have died out, but I've picked up muses based in and around the TF2 'verse. That's been a pretty big interest for me for a long while now. It's just a really awesome game and community with a lot of potential for worldbuilding. I love it. I still focus on Megaman on the side--once a robot lover, always a robot lover--but it's safe to say it's no longer my primary interest.
As of right now I'm pretty comfortable with my online presence. I'm not well known, but I have enough folks around that appreciate me and my work to where I'm happy with it. While I'm working on my happiness as a whole, it's the little things that keep me going in the long run, y'know? Never discredit the little things. They mean more than you'd think.
So... Yeah. Stuff happened and stuff is still happening, but... I'm alive, and I'm not going anywhere anytime soon. Who knows? Maybe you'll see me around even further down the line, enjoying life to the fullest, despite my past and other assorted troubles weighing me down.
After all, the world doesn't seem so heavy when you have the folks you love to hold you up.
Anywho, I don't have a link to drop you guys this time, but just know I'm alive and kickin'. I might check up on here every now and again, but I figure that if you drop a comment, I'll go ahead and PM you on my newest account. It's always nice to get in touch with people you've known since the beginning.
Best of luck, guys.
-- Dragon
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Devious Journal Entry
1 min read
Hey there. c:
Wanna know where I'm at now? Sure you do! So I'll provide a link.
Hell, if I could somehow change my screen name over here, I'd do that and continue using this one. I miss having bragging rights of being here for six years.
But until then...
StrangeMantreads
Go wild!
Wanna know where I'm at now? Sure you do! So I'll provide a link.
Hell, if I could somehow change my screen name over here, I'd do that and continue using this one. I miss having bragging rights of being here for six years.
But until then...
StrangeMantreads
Go wild!
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TEN MILLION YEARS LATER
1 min read
why am i here? well my friend that is a secret i will take to the grave (aka i wanted to plug my newest account)
SCMT-Tumblr is the username. do note i've changed a lot as a person so expect that
why am i even here no one pays attention to this account anymore
SCMT-Tumblr is the username. do note i've changed a lot as a person so expect that
why am i even here no one pays attention to this account anymore
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Thinkin' of moving accounts
1 min read
Why?
I answer you with: For a fresh start
Frankly this account is getting a bit run-down and confusing, plus I kinda don't like my username that much anymore and I'm not gonna be able to change it anytime soon, nor am I going to beg for a premium
Seriously! I leave for five minutes and come back to 80+ deviations from various groups
I'll post a link here in this journal once I get the other account set up
Till then, feel free to continue talking to me here
-DX412
EDIT: CrashBomb is where I'm hiding now
eve
I answer you with: For a fresh start
Frankly this account is getting a bit run-down and confusing, plus I kinda don't like my username that much anymore and I'm not gonna be able to change it anytime soon, nor am I going to beg for a premium
Seriously! I leave for five minutes and come back to 80+ deviations from various groups
I'll post a link here in this journal once I get the other account set up
Till then, feel free to continue talking to me here
-DX412
EDIT: CrashBomb is where I'm hiding now
eve
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DAMN PASS-IT-ONS
1 min read
Quickbro y
y u include other rule
YOU'RE LOCKED IN A CLOSET ALONE WITH ME
What is your reaction/what do you do?
Don't pass it on if you don't want to
CUE AWKWARD
y u include other rule
YOU'RE LOCKED IN A CLOSET ALONE WITH ME
What is your reaction/what do you do?
Don't pass it on if you don't want to
CUE AWKWARD
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